2. I have been quiet on social media because my heart has been heavy with the difficulties of the world. Sometimes it is very hard to make your insides match with your outsides. Every single day I'm reminded of the complexity of human feeling, how we can be happy and sad at the same time.
3. I have slowed down a lot in my writing, in my editing, in my life. I don't know if this is the hibernation of winter or the acknowledgment that I need more time to process things. I always want answers, solutions, a course of action, but in the end, one thing solves itself and another thing opens up as a problem. I wonder if we spent more time on resolution then fewer things would be problems.
4. I finished my copy edits on the alcoholic girl boxer book. I love that book still. I hope other people love it too. It doesn't come out for a year. Publishing is a strange animal with timelines, and yet I find I don't mind waiting as much as I used to. There are a lot of books in the world. It is better for people to read widely than be inundated with just my books.
5. I did a school visit on Friday in front of an unexpectedly large audience. It is difficult to talk about things as personal as rape in front of so many people. I wonder if other people do this better. If it feels less personal to them so they can get their points across more. I have talked in front of a class of 40 at Northwestern University many times, but an auditorium is a different animal. I have been thinking a lot about this issue of who we owe our story to. Laura Ruby and I are going to write something for the Sexual Violence in YA Lit Project about it. I wonder about the balance of being an out survivor and still protecting yourself enough to share your story in your own words and your own time.